Today is summer solstice – and here I am right in the middle of things. I can see myself standing on a hill, dressed in battle robes (holding a big sword), with the light and the dark to either side of me.
I love the pagan symbolism for the solstice: everything feels lit up and intense and pregnant with potential. I know that having left behind the shitawfulness of last year, and the lovely six weeks off to recalibrate has been a gift. Aside from the badness following our impromptu street party to toast Her Maj, I haven’t had a drink all year. I am jammed with energy. I am leaving every day at a reasonable hour, reading at least a book a week. My sleep is deep and sound. We have spent more time in the countryside this year than ever before – drawn to the big sky, fields and woodland outside the M25. I am inhaling fruit and veges and water and cooking simple healthy food. As a consequence I am shedding the last pounds and it feels easy (YAY!). I am learning to trust my intuition because when I question it or analyse it: when I doubt it: thats when I feel tied up in knots. There is such magic in the air around me at the moment, I feel shiny, electric, ready.
In all senses, I feel that my true self, my best self is emerging. And I feel very protective of myself: I want to stay quiet, cocooned, introspective. I am so sensitive to crowds and noise and crave gentle peace. I am hibernating as there is much ahead.
Before the Winter Solstice I will have:
- taken up running again and finished a charity 10km in November
- completed the coaching training I started two years ago because I now feel totally ready for it and I get goosebumps everytime I think about it
- officially become ex-pats with the transfer of our kiwisaver pensions and the sale of our New Zealand properties
- welcomed Sus back to London with an awesome book party (you’ve read it, right?)
- skinny-dipped with the Mungbean on a southern Californian beach
And its taken six months, but I think that my word for this year is ‘clear’.
image taken at noon outside the office
“I feel shiny, electric, ready.”… swoooon! That all sounds magic Sas. It really does feel like the air is crackling with possibilities right now. Love the sound of everything coming up too, rock on!
bless you love!
i have been thinking of you all week as i prepare to dust off the U&R 5Km training kit!
will be back for the 10km in a few months :)
xxx
Yay for taking up running again! Come join my Street Team on Runkeeper and we can shuffle round – virtually – together!!
thanks mrs j – will check it out :)
This? Is a cool drink of clear, crystal clear spring water. Your words ripple, resound, reflect so much of the journey I am traveling, as well.
Solstice salute to you, Sas… all the very best in the coming six months.
honey your training programme leaves me breathless (and I am just reading about it).
‘ripple resound reflect’ – love that x
Fuck yeah! On all counts :D
Yes, yes, there must be a reason for the murky badness life presents at times, if only to come through it and reflect how much better we are for coming out the otherside.
Much love
mj.x
yup. those mayans won’t know what hit ‘em. you inspired me to do my list, too. xx
Who are you doing your coaching training with, is it Martha Beck? I discovered her through references on your blog, and the programme looks amazing!
I love your list, Sas, and your beautiful blog.
hello love! sadly not martha beck though i recently met her and after a five minute one on one i would love to work her programme. i am training through CTI – there is a book that goes with their programme called co-active coaching that is wirth checking out if you are interested :)