Archive for July 2008

plans and stuff

July 28, 2008

When I was 15 I wrote a list of all the things I wanted to achieve in the next 20 years. I wanted to have travelled everywhere, have loved and been loved, got my degree, published (my excruciatingly bad) poetry. The (not so much as it turns out) idealistic dreams of a 15 year old. […]

project: feline integration

July 23, 2008

Rex is Science Guy’s cat. His full name is Rekohu, the Moriori name for the Chatham Islands, meaning ‘misty skies’. He’s two years old, a British Blue, very sociable, playful, a great chaser. He likes to push things (pens, remotes, phones) off surfaces and peer over the ledge like he just totally dominated. George on […]

holding on

July 21, 2008

I used to drive myself crazy because he never told me how he felt about us. So I never felt secure or certain of our future, only extraordinarily anxious. I held on so tight. And I spent a lot of time compromising a lot of me, to be the girl I thought he wanted me […]

emerged

July 12, 2008

Fleeting bouts of homesickness were sometimes triggered by 100% Pure NZ ads in the Observer Sunday supplements; that discombobulated feeling of being stranger in a strange land. London had long since ceased to fill me with awe when I made the phone call to the Air New Zealand shop in the Haymarket. Heathrow to Wellington, […]

a wardrobe of ones own

July 03, 2008

Clothes hangers clanging together in an empty wardrobe is such a lonely sound. It’s the din of him leaving, the clamour of heartbreak. The deafening roar of starting again. First you replace the bed linen. Then lamps, throws, and cushions. Books are stacked beside the bed. The bed you slowly get used to sleeping in […]

bus talk

July 02, 2008

This morning, as the #8 chugged into Lampton Quay: Me: Can you push my button? Science Guy: Would you like me to get you off? *giggles*